Unwritten

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I hope its true.

But I can’t imagine how much fonder I can be.

These months will probably be the hardest of my life.

I’m not worried about us though.

I know we’ll be fine.

Because a love like ours can’t be broken by distance,

it won’t be phased by absence or time.

Our love will only get stronger with each passing day.

I know what they say is true.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Day 2.

I’m already more fond of you.

Everyone has a Brian, a Ryan or a Chance. They’ll never give up, grow up or leave you alone. It will be hard to say no to them. It’s hard not to answer their calls or texts. But one day you’ll find someone that makes you forget about them; someone who makes you want to ignore them. And when you find that person, hold onto them.

I keep thinking this is going to get easier. I keep thinking I’m getting stronger. But I’m not. I can’t be in those situations. You are over her. You have forgiven her. You can be nice. I can’t. I won’t be. I never will. You see, its weird, because she didn’t  hurt me. She hurt you. And I hate her for hurting you. I hate her for what she put you thru. I hate how she comes around and acts like none of that ever happened. It did. I broke down today. I said things that have built up for a long time. I know I hurt you. We fought, our first real fight. And it sucked. You cried. I cried. Now you’re sleeping and here I am replaying everything in my head. Everything I said to you. I know I’m pushing you away. I know I’m letting the past come between us. I need to stop. I need to get over it. And starting now. I am. This was it. This was the last time. I won’t let this happen again. Because I love you. I can’t hurt you. And I refuse to push you away.